Friday, August 8, 2008

Crazy Posting / Life

So, I think you better disregard the post from the 5th How much has your mothering changed... Did you find it to be a bit of a "downer"? Was it a bit too honest? Was it not joyous for the Lord?

Well, here's me lately:
Mad, angry, irritated, agitated, all other synonyms, you get the idea.
Crying, sleeping, overwhelmed, not being able to sleep, can't do anything during the day.
Really "good days" when lots gets done, everyone is happy, things are productive.
"Normal" days where I am just normal pregnant, the kids are normal kids (as they are everyday), and things happen the way they are supposed to.

Apparently I am suffering from some form of pregnancy related depression. Things are not going well for me right now. I had a serious bit of it (not treated) a couple months after li'l D was born and it seems to be back. I am working now on sleeping more (naps during the day and going to bed e-a-r-l-y) and really watching my food intake. (Like making sure I actually eat!!) The doc asked if I thought I "needed something" but I don't really want the baby to be affected. However, if I can't shake it and have more of the bad days I will think about it some more. I will really have to watch it after this baby is born. Make sure I am doing what I need to do best for the family.

So take these past and future posts with a grain of salt. They may be the ramblings of a person gone a little haywire!

1 comment:

Melissa said...

Aw, I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I can only imagine the strength it must take to take care of your husband, three kids, and yourself, let alone preparing for a newborn on top of it all. I'm sending you as much strength as I can. I do hope it gets better soon.